One of the best things I could ever do for myself is to write this blog. I have noticed that I turn to it normally in times of distress and or pain and or big happenings. As it happens, much pain, lot of distress some happenings around betrayal of an old friend and rejection of a new. No - thats too strong a word. A change of heart at Jane Eyre would say. A most unfortunate change of heart.
So here I sit, feeling displaced and desperately alone. Like a stray dog thats been in a fight and has crawled under a bush to lick its wounds. I ve suffered some staggering losss in terms of personally hugely important people within the last two months. Jem, Marlene and Nick. Gone. Jen. Gone. Strawberry Milkshake. cracked.
My thoughts are chaos, nerve endings screaming. Is this what they call a tipping point????????? when the tiniest thing can send me toppling over the edge? I continue to totter vicariously, madness beckoning like a mermaid calling a ship onto the rocks.
Why have you forsaken me??????????????
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