I admit it was pride that tried to downplay the fact that in this period in time the student has surpassed the teacher. I stupidly thought you hadnt noticed. Duh! you saved my life on Wednesday night. Reached me in a space where no one else could. Came quietly to the place where the snarling, wounded lioness was hiding and touched the rawness of my insanity.
You coaxed me out with words of promise - with visions of my future. You said - you want to see your grandchildren dont you? How did you know? How did you know that it was only that exact phrase that made stop the knotting of the sheet Id been working on for hours?
You arrived, late and anxious the next day when most other people would have run. You didnt bring wine or flowers. "Ive bought you a gift", you said with heightened cheerfulness, hastily summonsed to hide your worry. "bananas from South Africa - your favourite" We did not speak of it but we both know that I had been teetering dangerously on the edge. Playing with fire, just as I used to do as a little girl - setting fires, crying for help that never came.
The cloud lifted. Thank you.
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