From the time I was about 22 years old I made decision not to allow peoples words, adjectives or labels define me. And as a rule, I dont. But events over the last month have caused an even more acute "belly button "syndrome than usual. I find myself being obsessively introspective as you can probably tell by the increased ramblings on this blog!!!!!!! Had a run in with a client of mine this week who as usual, attacked what I was wearing as it was not within his cultural context of acceptable wear and he suffers from intolerable "unrelenting standards" sickness. Very self and other critical. I was expecting it and wore the diamond shirt as an act of defiance against my depression which was not lifting caused by severe withdrawal from various people that I love in my life. And it seemed to bring ME some relief ven though others in Mauritius would not understand and looked at me in a rather bemused way.
I have started thinking about the way I define myself and came up wih the following labels:
woman
Christian
Consultant
mother
wife
lover
hypocrite
passionate
loyal
friend
coach
counsellor
customer
lesbian
methodist
south african
english
deep
intense
strong
fierce
expat
traveller
expert
Question is - how can all of these begin to live together?
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